The untold talking diary story

He was right when he said " Luv can hurt, can make tears but without luv what we would be?.. " just as my feelings right now, feels hurt when i have to forget him, feels sad when he away from me, but without that feelings i would never know how beautiful luv was, said Razzel.

Luv came when razzel needed a place to share, with a polite smile a guy offered her a shoulder to cry on, he showed her meaning of affection and he took her to a place called true luv.

That december cloudy morning razzel window's knocked by a name, he came and introduced his self.
" Hi, my name is Haskell. I'm 24 years old, i'm a manager of trading company and if you'd like to know i'm a mba . May i know your name please? " he said.
" I'm Razzel " told razzel.
" Razzel, do you have bf? " haskell asked.
" Yes i have " answered razzel.
" oh, i'm late " said him.
Razzel just smiled and was not too much talking. She didn't know how much haskell needs a shelter.
then Suddenly haskell showed her a very sad face " dear, can i share with you? my girl friend has just left me but i can't forget her " he said.
she smiled again to him and asked " why so? what caused her leave you? ".
" I asked her to marry with me, but she refused because her brother didn't like me " he said.
" Oh too bad, but don't be sad, God will give you another better girl " said her
" I wish so " he said.
" But why her brother didn't like you? he must have had a reason right? " asked razzel.
" Yea, her brother saw me kissed her, but it was only once " answered haskell.
Razzel wondered and said " It's only a kiz, why he didn't like you? ".
Then haskell said " In our country it's something unusual ".
" Owh ... " said razzel, then she understood people in his country mostly are religious minded, man has no access to a woman unless they are married.
" Why don't you get her back to you, show her brother that you're really luv her, i believe he'll understand " she said.
" Yes, but she already ignore me. She doesn't want me anymore, so nothing's left more " he said.
she wondered why he was so sensitive, Well however he was, it's human nature right ?
It only took him few minutes to talk about his luv story, then he said " razzel, may i add u to my messenger list?"
" Yes, why not " said razzel. Razzel thought hhmmm... he's polite enough, not like others.
Another day has come, and again haskell knocked at razzel's window.
" Assalamalikum.. " said haskell.
as a nice girl razzel welcome for his coming. " Hi, how are you today? may you have your day nice and pleasant " said her.
Razzel and haskell are involved in exciting topic, and since that time they both were be friends.
Razzel felt convenience talking with haskell,he was a good polite guy, kind and smart. She shared everything with him and also him to her. what a serenity they felt when they talked to each other, as they dropped their problems from their shoulders.
" Razzel, you're nice and kind to me, you're delicate and adorable, your face is also facinating too, thanks for your kind raz! " said haskell
" Don't say thanks, that's what friends are for " said razzel
then haskell sent smile icon to her.
Day by day has passed away, haskell came almost everyday and they became close to each other, untill one day haskell said " You're so kind razzel, you know how to through this life, i wish you were..." said haskell.
" wish i were what ? " said razzel.
" no, nothing, please drop it " he said.
" well, ok if you don't want to continue your sentence " she said.
" but really razz you're so attractive, you draw me to you " he said.
then razzel smiled to him.
Razzel days began colourful as she found a new life and a new experience having a nice friend as haskell who always hearing and understand her. When haskell didn't come she felt something missing.
One day when sky was dark and cloudy, haskell came with all his heart and said " razzel, why you always come on my mind, why my heart always goes to you, why i always feel you in my days, why razzel.. tell me what's that feeling ? ".
razzel just smiled and she couldn't talk anything. in her mind she didn't know how to say, she didn't realize what has happened with them.
then razzel asked " has, couple days ago you came to me and said you couldn't forget your ex, does what you say above mean now you already forget her ? how can has ?"
Haskell answered " do you know razz, she made me ill feel, during with her i only waste my time and money, she didn't fully love me, why now i should remember her again. i've already expell her from my heart ".
At first razzel felt nothing special with haskell, she didn't have any special feelings for him. she only treated him as a friend.. ordinary friend. but haskell again and again came to her life knocked at her door of heart. sometimes razzel helpless but she knew it was something imposible.
in bright morning in eleven january haskell tried to told her his feeling.
" i try to come closer but you ignore, i knock at your door but you shut it, i give you my feelings but you don't care, why you make me like this razzel? give me a chance to prove all i said, don't hide your feeling from me, i honestly luv you razzel from my bottom of heart " said him
razzel's heart was melted hearing his words, she wanted to say that she loved him too but she knew it was imposible and she only could say " believe has, what you feel i feel it too ".
" is that mean you love me too ? " asked haskell
razzel didn't want to answer, she left and close her window.

Bukankah cinta suatu paksaan sederhana ?....

Dari mana aku harus mulai mengisahkan...
Sesaat hadirnya pada tiupan angin january dan berlalu saat hembusan nuansa kering mulai tiba. Waktu mendesir kian cepat, tatkala kutemukan bahwa setiap kata yang pernah tersematkan dijantungku tak lagi bernyawa, dan bahkan sebuah berita tentang seorang kawan baru yang menitipkan sehelai kata berkelopak mawar disela surat tak berwarna yang ditulis dalam gesa hanya melintas tak berbekas.
Namun aku harus terus menjelma menjadi batu yang teramat melengkingkan, kesakitan dan sedikit tetes merah serupa air mata menyimpan amarah pada pori-pori beku batunya.
Bukankah cinta suatu paksaan sederhana?...
Maka tersenyumlah di atas angin dahi yang membara, sebab waktu telah mengantarkannya kembali pada musim dingin yang tak kunjung usai yang hanya menyisakan suatu kepolosan.

Arca Yang Hilang

Ku bangun arca di sudut taman ini setelah gerimis malam mengaburkan seluruh pandangan dan mengekalkan kabut di pagar-pagar
Setiap pahatan ku urai dengan senyuman, yah... barangkali saja kita abadi selamanya...
Namun sebuah sungai tiba-tiba menjelma dihadapan kita dan pusarnya membuat kita tak lagi punya waktu untuk berpandangan sekedar saling bertegur sapa lewat bahasa mata
Air apa pula yang mengalir deras menggigilkan ?
Mendesak percakapan menjadi pecah di dinding
Bayang-bayang dalam cerminan air lebih di percaya ketimbang wujudnya.
Dan seperti jerat nafas yang mempersempit ruangan, setiap melangkah makin dekat matahari... semakin asing dalam misteri
Maksud baik terkubur lubang, tersesat tikungan dan dipatahkan pertanyaan
Angin yang ramah selalu mendesir sapa
Gelombang air tersenyum di atas sampah
Tangannya menjangkau panjang sekali mencekik sukma
Sukma malam tak nantikan ia pulang
Sukma bulan tanpa perhitungan lagi
Arca yang hilang jauh sekali terombang arus
Jangan dicari kemana-mana, di taman manapun ia tak ada
Jauh sekali dalam pusar....ia mencari inti
dan mungkin telah ia temukan dalam damai... dalam tawa
bukan curiga juga kecewa
itu jalannya, takkan di nanti
Sebab malamku selalu sama, selalu ada
Dan waktupun kian beranjak dari jarak
Tinggallah ia yang kan berjalan dengan sendirinya.

Great Advice

Follow this advice and you can improve your life !...

Always remember that you're loved, even when it doesn't seem like it.
Believe in your self and your values, don't sell out when things go wrong.
Don't let anything get you down, always bounce back up !
Set goals for your future and never settle for anything less.
Realize that there are others in the world with much bigger problems than you.
Appreciate the good things in your life, and be thankful for the time you have and for your loved ones.
spend more times with your family and friends.
Appreciate the simple things in life, and don't get caught up in material things.
If you follow this advice you can't go wrong !
So next time you're looking at a situation
Ask your self, is the glass half empty ?
or is the glass half full?
Be an optimist and see the glass is half full.
Before long your attitude will rub off on others
And you can make the world a better place by simply making your self a happier person
If you see someone without a smile, give them one of yours.
Here is one to get you started !!

d.U.a J.u.N.i d.U.a R.i.B.u T.u.J.u.H

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